Has this ever happened to you?
You put your big girl, or boy pants on, jump out of your comfort zone, put something big out into the world and then immediately think,
“Oh my, what have I done?”
And then hide for a few days as you can`t go back in time, change an event or delete an action!
Well guess what that was me, this last weekend…I hid in my house because I took a huge leap and put my story out into the world…in a big way!
Let me give you a little back story. Back in February I wrote a chapter in a book with thirteen other authors. I shared some memories that had laid hidden for over thirty years. I, of course was nervous and worried, however being part of a pack of amazing women made the experience easier than I initially thought it would be.
So with that in mind and the words of a several people ringing in my ears.
“You should share your story, Soph. It will help so many people. Think of the kids, that would not feel alone, after reading your words”
I spent lock-down, journalling some events from my crazy childhood, some of which I had never shared with a soul. The process was freeing, liberating and traumatic all rolled into one. It certainly took a great deal out of me, I even surprised myself, crying at some memories for the first time ever.
I definitely learnt a lot about myself, my life and my life choices by delving into my hidden memories and by facing my fears and sharing them…with the world
The only problem that I encountered was my own feelings and actions after the publication, which happened last Friday. Yep, the 4th of September 2020, was D-day for my story to hit the world.
Of course I was nervous as well as excited but come Friday evening, I just wanted to hide, jump under the duvet and never come out. On Saturday evening, that is exactly what I did, I hide. My eldest daughter even asked, “Mum, why are you not excited, what's wrong”
I had received such great feedback already and I really wanted to share my memories to help others, who may still be struggling in a place of darkness.
But, what I learnt throughout this whole process is, that by sharing your truth, you do actually become vulnerable and strong, all at the same time. I totally exposed myself…yep I laid myself bare. So a few days of cocooning myself was perfectly normal and I guess it may even happen again…but I know that this is a story that needed sharing not only in the hope of helping others but also for myself because by sharing it, it can no longer bind me!
So tell me have this ever happened to you, a last minute panic after jumping out of that comfort zone?
For me writing just runs along side photography, each one is about storytelling, whether my story, or someone else. Each process is about taking the viewer or the reader on a journey, a journey of connection with the subject.
You can find out more about my childhood journey and all the colourful characters and crazy events in Escaping Bohemia, which is already receiving great reveiws! Yay, big smiley face here!
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